Sunday, September 5, 2010

Boomeranger

This morning, at Sunday brunch with the girlfriends, one of them laid out old pictures of us, some of them dating back to high school. This evening, I hung out at her apartment that she will soon share with her husband, once they're married. Though we sat around drinking beers and watermelon-infused vodka, most of us with significant others that we're pretty serious about, we were playing Catchphrase, and I thought, aside from the alcohol and long-term relationships, we could still be those same high-school kids who hung out in Cait's garage on warm summer nights. Or I could anyway.

Is this what twenty-two feels like? Like time has passed since high school, but you don't feel much different inside? Perhaps it's because I moved back home, but I don't feel a whole lot wiser, worldlier, or more accomplished. I knew that I liked to read and liked books in high school; now, after getting my degree in English lit, I'm still stuck at the same place--what can I do with myself that involves books but will actually be a stable career?

I started hanging out with some of my best girlfriends the summer before my senior year. I realized tonight that that was SIX years ago. It sure doesn't feel that long ago. I wonder if most adults feel as if high school wasn't that long ago, as if they're not much different now than they were then.